somehow I realized I should do something

So here I am. Watching YouTube videos (btw, why is YouTube not in google spell check yet? It's getting the red squigglies . Same with google. and squigglies. ah. life is ironic) and I realized : All those people that are extremely popular on youtube.... (OH! youtube in all lower case doesn't get a squiggly) ?
Why can't I have a life like them? I don't mean like I want to copy their lives, but just umm... having a LIFE! that's what I want.

After my recent breakup I've really been feeling the void. Yeah man. Not that the relationship was filling it (ahem ahem) but when you have something to think about all the time (neglectant boyfriends, crushes, stuff like that) your time is pretty much occupied. And it's not like I don't do other stuff... I read a lot, I write a lot, I go running, ... ah who am I kidding.
I have no life, besides maybe school and the aforementioned stuff.

Lately I've really felt the need to get out there and spend time with some new people, in some new places. I just want to put myself out there. I want to have a hobby besides just writing, which is my passion and blah blah blah but seeing that I never finish any of my stories and all that I write aside from that are diary-esque semi-obscure entries or emo poems about not being loved enough it's not really a ... share-able hobby.
I want to the world to see dammit.
!
So I've decided to get off my ass and do stuff.
Maybe try and get this blog somewhere. Finally write that book I've been planning to write. Maybe even make some youtube vids.

I just need to do SOMETHING other than school.

That's it yo.
I'm out
fo sho
(I don't know what I'm trying to do)
-Sui