kangaekomu

today i saw a glimpse of me
who I want to be, that is
and I wanted to grab that vision and run away with it
implant it into my soul
but it faded quickly into a hazy image
as I jumped up and attempted to give it a try

how could I expect that I would get there the easy way?

how could I expect to get around the work?

I couldn't
but I'm kind of disgusted by who I want to be
because I can't be who I want to be well
if that makes sense
it seems fake right now
like I'm trying too hard

because who I want to be is not me

and then I realized I just want to be me