sitting it out

Have you ever felt like everything is just working against you?
Like the whole world is snickering in your face with heaps and heaps of misfortune?
Have you ever sat in a corner, hugging your legs, your eyes pinched shut just wishing, wishing, that it could all just be ok?

Well that's what I feel like. Right now.

And everything was going to be ok.
I was going to have the most amazing christmas break yet.

But then wednesday happened. Oh how I detest Wednesdays.
The day itself not so much... but it seems that everything bad that happens to me always happens on a wednesday.

They say if you're a kind person and you give kindness to other people, you will get kindness in return.
But that's not how life works.
You give and give and give and all they do is take, take, take. And in the end you sit there with nothing. Nothing but the knowledge that all the things you love are destroyed.

I keep telling myself that, as always, it's just a phase. It will pass and then I'll be happy again.
I know that's true. But I haven't lived long enough to get comfort from the notion.
To me every day that I have to endure lingers on and on and on and on...

and then I get completely sugar high and go crazy
just to make myself forget.
what can I say?
it works..........

*frantically laughing *
-Sui